A lot of people have urged me to meditate, especially to help with my insomnia. Sometimes I try, but it's hard. Often I just concentrate on my breathing. Usually that helps.
One person suggested to me meditating on the mantra, "I am at peace." But let's be realistic: I'm not at peace. I'm a skeptic who doesn't like wishful thinking.
I was talking to a friend about meditation, who empathized. She told me she sometimes meditates on the simple phrase, "I am here." As the friend said, there's isn't much to argue about there. I thought maybe I should try it myself. I sat on the floor and closed my eyes.
"Here I am," I said in my head.
Every so often I forget I have aphasia. Until I actually try to say something, even in my head. I tried it again:
"Here am I."
Did I tell you that short phrases are the most difficult ones for many people who have aphasia, including me?
"Am I here."
Maybe I'll just go back to breathing.
15 hours ago